After the sadness of my appointment last Friday, and dealing with the fact that my eyes are progressing, I had totally forgotten our 4D baby scan was booked for the following weekend. At the time, I booked the scan after Moorfields, in case I received bad news and needed something to look forward to. When the reminder came up on my phone last Sunday, excitement washed over my upset. I can’t deny I was slightly apprehensive about the 4D scan even though my baby seems to be doing well and is healthy, but you just never know if they will end up picking something up that has been missed, or discovering something that needs monitoring, so although I was really looking forward to seeing our baby properly for the first time, I was slightly nervous too.
We went to the same private scanning facilities that we used for Harvey’s 4D scan and as soon as we entered the car park, all the memories came flooding back and at that point I was just really looking forward to finding out what our little boy looked like. Harvey hasn’t been allowed to any of the previous scans on the NHS, so it was so nice to bring him with us and share this experience together as a family and also to help him bond with his little brother.
Once we were in the scanning room, I was instantly relieved because there was a large screen at the end of the bed I had to lie on. With the previous scans, I have really struggled to see at the time, which broke my heart if I’m honest. The screen for the 12 and 20 week scans were right up in the corner of the room and really small and it was just so hard for me to make out our baby and everything the sonographer pointed out to us, so knowing I would see all of the 4d scan was amazing! As soon as the screen went on and we saw our little boy properly for the first time, I completely fell in love. His little button nose and sweet little face filled my heart with love and to watch Harvey seeing his brother on a screen for the first time is now one of my best memories 💙. When the half an hour ended, we even caught a little smile on the screen from our baby boy and then I knew that even if pregnancy has progressed my eyes, it’s been worth it, and I wouldn’t change a thing. I can’t wait to properly meet my little boy now and see how different or similar he may be to Harvey and to watch their bond grow in person. Life definitely has its hard and unhappy moments, but I’m so grateful to my 2 boys for giving me so much joy and happiness to hold on too xxx