Yesterday I said goodbye to my Grampa George. It was honestly one of the hardest days of my life, but something I couldn’t avoid and just had to get through it. It was a lovely day as strange as that sounds, and he would have been proud of his send off. I would do anything to have just one more conversation with him 💙, but I know that this can’t and won’t happen.
The last few years have taught me that life can change in an instant. Nothing is ever guaranteed, and we have to try and make the best of everyday. Some days are hard for many reasons, don’t get me wrong, but we need to try and accept the bad times so that we can keep on enjoying the good ones.
My Grampa always used to say to me that life is so short and that his had passed in a flash and he said the reason for that was because he was always happy with what he had, he never felt the need to compare himself to others and what they had and I think that is the best way to live.
My eye condition eats me up inside sometimes and I often can’t help but compare myself to others, but this is a time waster, because it won’t change anything. Sometimes we completely forget the positive things in life and it’s only when something happens, that we realise just how much time we gave to the negative. I’m going to take a leaf out of my Grampa’s book and try not to compare myself to others and wonder why I am losing my eyesight, but instead embrace all of the opportunities Stargardts has given me and the friendships it has created and the shy anxious person inside of me that it brought out of its shell and keep putting one foot in front of the other.
I know the person rooting for me the most will be watching over me always now, with a big smile on his face knowing that I can do this, that I was strong enough for this life I have been given with vision loss 💙 sleep well George xx.