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Remembering You

February 4, 2020

Yesterday I said goodbye to my Grampa George. It was honestly one of the hardest days of my life, but something I couldn’t avoid and just had to get through it. It was a lovely day as strange as that sounds, and he would have been proud of his send off. I would do anything to have just one more conversation with him 💙, but I know that this can’t and won’t happen. 

The last few years have taught me that life can change in an instant. Nothing is ever guaranteed, and we have to try and make the best of everyday. Some days are hard for many reasons, don’t get me wrong, but we need to try and accept the bad times so that we can keep on enjoying the good ones.  

Daffodil Photo
Daffodil Photo

My Grampa always used to say to me that life is so short and that his had passed in a flash and he said the reason for that was because he was always happy with what he had, he never felt the need to compare himself to others and what they had and I think that is the best way to live. 

My eye condition eats me up inside sometimes and I often can’t help but compare myself to others, but this is a time waster, because it won’t change anything. Sometimes we completely forget the positive things in life and it’s only when something happens, that we realise just how much time we gave to the negative. I’m going to take a leaf out of my Grampa’s book and try not to compare myself to others and wonder why I am losing my eyesight, but instead embrace all of the opportunities Stargardts has given me and the friendships it has created and the shy anxious person inside of me that it brought out of its shell and keep putting one foot in front of the other.

My Grampa George xx
My Grampa George xx

I know the person rooting for me the most will be watching over me always now, with a big smile on his face knowing that I can do this, that I was strong enough for this life I have been given with vision loss 💙 sleep well George xx.

Health and Beauty

Make-Up – Urban Decay

January 5, 2019
Urban Decay Cherry Palette pic of me with finished makeup.

I adore make up. When I was 18 I went to college to train as a beauty therapist with dreams of becoming a make-up artist. I passed easily as it was the first thing I had ever done that my heart was completely set on, but then things got in the way and anxiety struck, it was also at a time a lot of people were doing beauty and I just never carried on with it or wanted to go to London on my own to do the course. With my obvious decline in vision, I’m not sure if it was a blessing in disguise anyway, as I am finding make up harder and harder to do now, although I still love trying! And giving up a job I loved because of my Stargardts may have been very upsetting, so maybe life worked out for the best after all?

Urban Decay - Cherry Palette - Finished Eye Make-Up
Urban Decay – Cherry Palette – Finished Eye Make-Up

For Christmas my husband bought me the new Urban Decay Cherry palette and lipstick and today was the first day I’d had time to try it out, well it didn’t disappoint! The pinky red colours are amazing and so pigmented. I have a few Urban Decay palettes, but this one is definitely my favourite so far and the dark cherry lipstick finished the look off nicely. Other than my wonky smile, I was very pleased with the results and a reason why you should never give up. I will carry on with my make up as long as I possibly can and even though my dream of becoming a make-up artist never happened, I can still practice on myself when I get the time 💋♥️

My Cherry Eye Palette - Urban Decay
Cherry Eye Palette – Urban Decay
Vision

World Mental Health Day 2018

October 10, 2018
Me

Today was world mental health day. Before my diagnosis of Stargardts, I had struggled with anxiety, panic attacks and borderline agoraphobia on and off since the age of 14. I was no stranger to being somewhere completely safe, but going into a panicked meltdown and feeling absolutely terrified for no reason. I had many years of therapy for this, counselling and muddled on through life not really telling anyone except my mum and husband for fear of people judging me. In February 2015, my wonderful husband went out and got me a dog. I named him Loco the Labrador and he was perfect and from the day he came home he changed my life. He got me out of the house and into the fresh air. The further I walked with him, the more my anxiety lessened. He became my companion when nobody else was home and he became my comfort when out on my own.

me and my dog

My companion, my support, my dog x

 

A few things happened in the beginning of 2017 that re triggered my anxiety. My niece was born very poorly with a hole in her heart and it had taken its toll on our whole family, so I decided to go for a course of hypnotherapy, which really helped and eased my anxiety no end.

I am so very grateful for the hypnotherapy I had, as a few months after that and out of know where, I was told I was going blind. I can’t even begin to explain to someone not going through vision loss, the mental torture it can create. I also dread to think if I hadn’t of had everything in place at the time of my diagnosis, how debilitating my anxiety would have become. I have reached so many low points with my anxiety to a point I never thought it would ever get better and sometimes I felt like giving up. After my diagnosis, my anxiety was sky high, but after the initial shock wore off, I managed to practice everything I had learnt before it. Mindfulness, breathing exercises, having small goals and things to look forward to, but most of all I found admitting it to people the best thing. Hiding it made everything worse and it only puts pressure on you not to panic. If you tell someone and they don’t seem interested or bothered, tell someone else, there are people out there who will listen, there is help out there, even going to see your GP or contacting MIND, someone is out there to listen to you. My point of this post is I have hit rock bottom before and never thought I would recover, but here I am, with a diagnosis that is very difficult to live with, getting on with things and if I do say so myself, doing it quite well ♥️ never give up, the scary feelings will pass eventually and it’s ok not to be ok, believe in yourself.

Mind Website:

https://www.mind.org.uk/

Social:

#WorldMentalHealthDay

I did this article with Northampton Association for the Blind today for World Mental Health Day. I thought I would share for anyone else dealing with vision loss. The tips I have listed in the article are what help me to cope on a daily basis.

https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/9-top-tips-managing-your-mental-health-when-coping-sight-williams

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